A few days ago, we were observing the 31st National Coming Out Day (NCOD). But it follows that we have to know what our sexual orientation (whether we are gay or transgender etc.) is first before we can come out. So, our question for you today is this: when and how did you know you were gay?
Others say it was as early as age 4, 5, 6, 7, or 8 when they first experienced same-sex crushes although the dawning understanding that they are gay usually doesn’t come until they were in their teens at age 12, 13, 14 etc. On the other hand, we’ve also read online confessions where 22-year-old guys like this one would ask if they were gay and how would he know for sure? And can anybody please help him figure out his situation as he is crushing on a male classmate, hence our topic. But for this lady though, it wasn’t until she was already 36, married with 2 kids, when she realized she was gay.
Anyway, a study conducted in 2017 revealed that children who engaged in “gender-conforming play (meaning, they are ‘boys who played with trucks and girls who played with dolls’)” as early as 3.5 years old are “most likely to report being heterosexual at age 15.” Meanwhile, children who engaged in “gender-nonconforming play” or those “who played with toys not meant for their gender” are most likely to come out as gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender in their teens.
Is the result of their study true for you? How and at what age did you realize you were gay, guys? Share with us your thoughts and stories in the comments section below.
i wasjust 8 or 9 iknow
In my early teens I knew I liked looking at men. In highschool, when my male peers started commenting on women’s tits and asses, I realized I didn’t care. At that time, gays we’re just beginning to be visible in public and on TV. They were all flamboyant, loud, obnoxious and feminine. It was the only option presented for being gay. I knew for sure I wasn’t any of that and became Functionally Straight, fulfilling that role until much later in life when through the Internet I was able to befriend many guys like me, guys of similar age who… Read more »
Wow Hunter, We have the almost the exact same story! I was really confused because gay men back there that I knew like you said, were flamboyant, loud, feminine, etc. I played high school football, basketball and baseball. Loved cars and trucks and my close friends were mostly male. That made it hard because they liked me alot and wanted to be around me. I remember my best friend, we played on the high school football team. Beautiful nice manly bubble butt. Couldn’t keep my eyes off his ass. He use to walk around me naked all the time because… Read more »
You know, when you just answer the question, and you are real and yourself, your blog is a pleasure to read 😉
Wow, bud i so associate with your story. What really opened my eyes was going to gay bar and seeing guys that you would never expect to be gay. Helped break those stereottoes in my head.
My first time trying a guy I was 40 .The wife and I wanted to try swing but not sure how to get started. Well being the loving person my wife is she found a couple that wanted to play but the guy was bi .Well after she and I had talked to them awhile she decided I should meet the guy to see if we hit it off not knowing she had told him she wanted me to play bi to.So the day came she had set up and we meet at my house to get to know each… Read more »
I knew i was gay, i guess, in about the 5th grade when i used to fantasize about dating and kissing certain boys in my class at school. The girls liked me a lot but i used to wanna date some of the boys. I imagined holding hands and kissing them and doing anything they wanted and being their partners. I didnt know much about sex but i knew i had romantic feelings about certain boys and dint have them for girls. I thought the girls were cute but id think about a boy id like and id get very… Read more »
I had crushes on women and girls from about 5 or 6. Around 7 or 8, I also started finding men attractive. I didn’t even know bisexuality existed until high school!
So I guess at 7-8 was when I knew I liked guys
I don’t know so much whether the study reflects children _made_ to play with gender-conforming toys, as in, conditioned to approval of certain behaviors: sublimation is a strong force in repression. Would the study producers check on those subjects at 25? 35? 45? Teenagers, wise enough to know how situations work, will not display critical non-comforming opinions or behavior in a household where survival and acceptance depend on fitting in. I remember seeing more than once, that some people do not shake away trying to win parental approval until middle age and beyond, even to the point of career selection… Read more »
It takes a long time to understand gender. I knew I was gay long before I understood how to be a man or to understand other men. There’s no way a child can understand the meaning of it, to decide they are trans and should transition. The consequences are enormous. And it’s little to do with fashion, clothing, make-up.
At the onset of puberty. Guys. Groups of them. Naked.
Women, when I tried to be straight, were ok, but were not guys. I turned out to be “masculine” but that’s a hazy definition. It took a while and a lot of failures at trying to be straight before I came out.
All of those definitions taught to me as a young guy were laughably incorrect, and the product of religious and cultural bias. I am who I am. Love isn’t usually abstracted from sexual relations, but for some (like me) it can and should be. YMMV.
At 59 and having had assorted forms of homosex with upwards of 200 different guys since my first at 18, I to this day don’t ID as gay even though sex with my wife of 30-plus years essentially hit a dead end about 3-4 years ago. For me, it’s strictly about the sex, not the culture, clothing, gender-reversal, etc. As for how my attraction to the same sex began, I can track it back almost to the very second: I was about 12-3/4, and in my 7th grade gym class (my school had an indoor pool) we had our first-ever… Read more »
I’m in the same boat as Matt(tho my school didn’t have an indoor pool). 8th grade was still considered High School in my state so after gym we showered before going to the next class. Lucky for me gym was my last class of the day and since I lived close to school I could walk home. I’d stay a few minutes longer than everyone else to jack off in the shower. One day another student stayed behind and we jacked off together. Of course, one thing led to another and we sucked each other off. This went on for… Read more »
You were a little ‘ballsier’ than me, Wayne. I was nowhere near ready to try actual contact till I was maybe 15 or 16. In 8th grade, my eyes were still roaming and trying to figure themselves out.
And I’m all with you about the physical connection – 1-on-1 or group play. Don’t get me started about the incredible 3somes and groups I’ve been involved with – nothing hotter…that is, when you can make them work (logistics, choices of guys, etc.).
The lifestyle? Wtf do you think being gay is, crossdressing and targeting straight guys? Vogueing to disco and pop? Running around in thongs, giggling and lisping like you’re leaking air? I’ve never had any urge to act effeminate, dress in women’s clothes, wear ass floss, dance in cut-off jeans on a pride float or even associate with guys that act that over the top. But you know what? I don’t deceive myself into believing I’m anything more than a red-blooded all-american cocksucker. I’ll admit in college I went through hell waiting for that “bi” phase of my life to kick… Read more »
To Jockn2cbt: I guess I can’t blame you for finding what I wrote insulting, but I obviously was not clear enough so perhaps this will clarify: I don’t view all gays as “vogueing to disco and pop, running around in thongs, giggling and lisping like you’re leaking air.” It’s simply a matter of it’s never been in my DNA to fall in love or develop any romantic feelings toward another guy – period. While I certainly can get very passionate having sex with guys, no love is expressed. For me, sex with guys is simply an activity between the two… Read more »
Thank you for this comment. This is how I live my life, but you helped to let me know that I am not alone in how I feel or live my life. This hit home with me:
“For me, it’s strictly about the sex, not the culture, clothing, gender-reversal, etc”
Thanks Will and yes, there are plenty of us out there like you. I don’t know if you’re also married to a woman or simply just as hidden in the closet as I am, but I know many openly gay guys resent us because we enjoy the sex just as much openly gay guys do, but we don’t take on the byproduct of it – cultivating M-M relationships and being open and honest about it. So I think it leaves some of them (perhaps like Jockn2cbt above) feeling like we sort of “cheat the system,” so to speak.
This isn’t about being in “love” with a guy. I have no delusions of picket fences and daisies. This is about sexuality. I have no “jealousy” for married guys cheating on their wives. I’m calling you out for being moral cowards. I’ve been a fuck-them and leave-them guy for most of my life. I had a LOT of freedom, timewise and financially, when I was young. I wasn’t a “curcuit boy”, but I would wind up in all the hot spots at the right time. I had sordid weekends with guys that were interesting, but for about 99% of my… Read more »
I knew i was gay at age 14,,, it was very sudden,, all along I was chatting girls and even had sex a couple times..but this one day I saw another schoolboy like myself from another school, and was completely spellbound by his looks and body structure he was a year older than me..Not knowing the different methods of approach I used the same as if I was talking to a girl when I greeted him.. he was so confused he just stood there and smiled awkwardly at everything I said… we then said our good-bys and went our separate… Read more »
At 5 or 6 I knew I was different by 12 I knew what I wanted
…for many of us, we did not need to be told. I, always, knew…not the words or the social condemnations. I saw the boys and I looked where I did. When I went to the military academy, I was told that beautiful boys are looked upon with suspicion and disdain. I took the hint and did more observing than participating. It was there and if you were wise, you could meet other cadets. There were those whom you trusted and there were those whom you distrusted. You kept, mostly to yourself, and all the rest, generally, gave you the “benefit-of-the-doubt.”… Read more »
Same here having attended a military academy for grade school and high school. Never did anything simply because anyone caught or even suspected of “being a ‘mo” would be hazed, ostracized and I remember some instances of guys who had been caught jacking off together receiving “group punishment” behind the parade ground stands. Faculty and Admin knew and turned a blind eye allowing cadets to dole out punishments (i.e. beatings) without restriction or interference.
NIPSEX:
What military academy did you attend? I was a member of The United States Military Academy. What you write I was unaware. I knew that punishment was accorded if you were caught. Generally, such things were overlooked as long as a cadet did not go out of his way to report it.
SMA (which is gone now, as are most of the old, large Southern 4th-12th grade academies) which was in Staunton,VA, near VMI. After that, VFMA in Wayne, PA, (the school they used in the film TAPS). It’s still there but it’s nothing like it once was. I got an appointment to USNA but ended up not accepting it, deciding I’d had my fill after 8 years of walking off tours in the rain and sleeping in rigid bunk beds. I wanted some fun for a change.
I was 6-7yrs old. I remember vividly having a crush on my soccer coaches who were twins and very hunky. I just imagined that I wanted “that” whenever I would think of future relationships. I didn’t realize until around 11-12yrs old what “that” really meant. I’m glad I figured it out early though.
I think I was about 6-8 years old. My father was very comfortable with being nude even slept naked and his morning routine consisted of getting out of bed heading to the bathroom naked. He’d shower and then shave not wearing a towel or underwear which to him was perfectly natural. I was fascinated by his hairy body, his penis, pubic hair, and balls. Probably because him being a man and me not looking like him yet as a young boy. I stole glances at his crotch whenever I had the chance being I normally had to wake up and… Read more »
well i knew i was gay a 5 or 6 played with my best in the grade school did not know what it was called back then but i love to suck his dick a hell of a lot and i really like to let him top me too damn i really enjoyed it and the fist time i swallowed i was 11 or 12 i loved it tried the marry life with a woman fro almost a year well i felt dirty, guilty, cheated and i knew i did not fill right to me i was 18 then,,and when… Read more »
I was 12 in the sixth grade. It was a cold November day. I went to Catholic grade school, we were outside on the playground/parking lot durning lunch time. It was a light bulb moment. You know when the bulb turns on. I realized my guy friends were all talking about the girls and how they would do it with this one and that one. But for me I was thinking to myself how I wanted to do with this this guy or that guy and not the girls.
At a young age I found myself much more focused on the boys in my class, rather than the girls. Eventually I started to “experiment’ with my cousin Jim, a year older than I, very good looking boy of 13. It was all rather innocent and naive, strip poker, jerking each other off, which in time led to frottage, but nothing more “advanced”. Since we lived fairly close, I’d ride my bike over to my cousin’s house often. This one evening, we had the house to ourselves and boys being boys, one thing led to another. We were going at… Read more »
I didn’t “know” until college. I know that I liked men, but that I couldn’t be gay. It wasn’t acceptable back then. I liked boys and wanted to touch them at an earlier age, by 7-9, but I didn’t want to be ostracized.
I played with both boys and girls toys. I guess it is telling that at age 3, I wanted a baby doll. Later 10-12, I wanted to play with my sister and her friends when they played Barbie dolls, but she would not let me play.
I think you knew, you just didn’t admit it. I never understand these guys that claim they had no clue they were gay until they were 27 or whatever. We all showered naked together, right? Had to have some inkling you were drawn to dick. Speaking of Barbies, lol, I remember my sister’s collection and whenever she wasn’t around I’d assault them. To me Barbie looked pretty damn anatomically correct once stripped naked, but where the fuck was Ken’s cock?! That used to piss me off to no end that the manufacturers didn’t give poor Ken his cock and balls.
Must have been a different time or place. I never got to shower with other guys. In high school I wasn’t on any sports team. After normal gym class we just put our clothes back on and went to class. I do remember noticing a new kid who had a jock strap. It wasn’t something I ever had. In college I lived at home, I graduated with an engineering degree and had my own apartment. So I never lived with another guy. Even by brother and I got separate rooms by the time we were 10 or 12.
In my school, we were showering together in 4th grade. In fifth grade my family moved to Oklahoma for a year and at school we wore our street clothes for P.E. which I thought was real low class. In Oregon we had uniforms in the school colors. We had 1st grade thru 6th, Junior High 7th and 8th, then High School. It was 7th grade where I could see the sexual maturation, we 7th graders were bald and the 8th graders had their pubes. Cock sizes must jump around the same time also because I remember lusting over a couple… Read more »
I must disagree. My best friend, with whom I have no secrets, said he had no sexual thoughts toward guys until he was 21 and just leaving the military, and now thinks about what might have been if he had only known
I was 12 years old and in 7th grade of Catholic school. It was a rainy, miserable day in Pennsylvania and we weren’t allowed to spend our lunch hour in the schoolyard, so we stayed in the classroom instead. The boys were on one side of the room and the girls on the other, much like the way we acted at the school dances. This time, however, the boys were talking about the girls and noticing how some had filled out since last year. I looked around at the boys in our little circle and I realized that I had… Read more »
I was 13 and came across my sister’s playgirl magazine. I saw my first naked guy and got hard as a rock. As I discovered porn, I found myself always looking more at the guys in the pics and less at the girls. Had my first experience with a guy at 18. At the time being gay was not as accepted as it is now. I told myself I was straight, got married and had a family, I still found my way to the ABS and always went to the gay section to find some man action. I am still… Read more »
Your story sounds like I wrote it. Our lives mirror each other. I love my m2m time whenever I can find it. Happy hunting.
Wow Jim – your story (and perhaps yours too Mark) is nearly identical to mine (aside from the sister’s playgirl mag). Same age in loss of gay-virginity; married over 30 years; sex with wife has all but ended; always searching for guys. Yup, I check all those off at age 59.
I’d invite you both to read mine above and see to what extent my earlier years may mirror both of yours.
MATTK,
Yes, our younger years are very similar. I was a bit older than you when I lost my gay virginity. It took me awhile to get up the nerve to stop thinking about it all the time and just do it. I know there are a lot of us out there. I’m not ashamed of my lifestyle. It works for me, I’ve accepted who I am and the search for my next partner goes on.
Mark- I’m not so sure I’m not unashamed of what I do, but I’ve long since learned to manage any guilt or shameful feelings I have in doing it. Regardless of our respective ages when we tried it the first time, I’ll say this: I had built it up in my mind for several years before finally doing it and that first time so far exceeded my expectations, it was incredible. And I was able to try everything first time out: we 69’d then he fucked me, then I fucked him back – boom boom boom – pure ecstasy. Did… Read more »
Unfortunately, I never put 2 + 2 together. It wasn’t until I was 37. The second that his tongue breached my asshole, I knew I was home. Sweet Virginia, I was home!
At 32, I masturbated for the first time using gay porn. Shortly after had my first gay experience. Spend 13 years deciding if I like it or not, but at the same time still masturbating to gay porn….about 3 and a half years ago I accepted that I’m bisexual….. to answer your question:
Was it at 32 when I jerkEd off and have my first experience; or
At 45 when I finally accepted I was bisexual?
All I can say is no dolls, trucks, building sets, mopeds, bikes….get the picture but very shy. Was in mr room or outside by myself. Loved to draw buildings, build buildings in sand box, or with Lincoln logs toys like that, parents thought I would be an architect. Guess my parents first clue was I was glued to tv when ever Batman was on. I don’t ever remember anything sexual about it. My parents said they enjoyed watching me watch it as I duck all the punches etc. in 73 I was 14, I was a late bloomer, didn’t enter… Read more »
44 yrs old, I guess I have been denying for a better part of my life. I have often been curious. But in the last couple years with some experimenting with some friends definitely bisexual. Sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don’t!
I was 19 and str8t or so i thought. Alwaus had girls over at my house. College , work, concerts. That was everything to me then. Richard looked enough like me to be my 15 year old brother, but was my roommate’s 15 year old cousin. I was kind of dreading his extended visit, but was surprised that he acted older than he was. He also could throw down on all the partying that my roomate and i did. One night of drinking he had a little much. My roomate was out , i got Rich to the shower floor… Read more »
In my early 20’s I discovered bisexual movies. It was hot watching two guys with one woman, I found I enjoyed watching the men pleasure each other. At 26, I sucked my first cock and kept that up for years, usually at Adult Book Stores. It was years before I let a man actually kiss me and I found I enjoyed that also, found men are amazing kissers. When I was 40, I met a gay couple at their apartment. We played, kissed cuddled on their couch and eventually I got on my knees, sucking one guy and his partner… Read more »
I never was a “typical” boy. Wasn’t into sports or hunting, etc. I wasn’t girly but just didn’t fit with most of the boys I knew. So, I spent most of my teen years trying to convince myself that I was heterosexual and only dated girls. Never had sex with them but went out with them. I was raised strict Catholic so sex before marriage was not an option. Lol. However, when I masturbated I found that I was fantasizing about being with a boy and I loved seeing my classmates naked in the locker room. I was in my… Read more »
I think I began thinking about it when I was in elementary school. I loved to play doctor with one of my good friends….we were probably only about 9, and I would take every chance to pull his underpants down and touch him around his cock and balls, pretending to examine him. I didn’t act beyond that, but when I was a freshman in college, a beautiful black guy came up to me in the college pool and asked if I would like to meet him in the bathroom to play around – guess he noticed that I was looking… Read more »
Coming of age in the early 70’s gay culture was developing but hardly mainstream. My best friend and I engaged in the typical “guys helping each other out until we find girlfriends”. I felt a deep attraction for him and soul-searched a bit after we first had sex. I realized that I had enjoyed it, no one was harmed and I could see no wrong in it. Sadly he was terrified of being gay and as soon as he had his orgasm he would be wracked with guilt. Eventually he married the first girl that gave him some sex and… Read more »
I always knew I was different, my grandmother said I was “special”. I dated and screwed as many girls as possible but there was something lacking. One night at an adult bookstore I got a blow job thru a glory hole. The next night I gave one. Whe I finally went to bed with a man I knew what I was missing. Bottoming came so naturally for me, it was and still is paradise…
I was in college and noticed this guy near my PE locker. He was gorgeous, then he took his clothes off. Wow I could hardly breath. His body was incredible but his cock. I didn’t know a cock could be so beautiful. I was very athletic, had a few beautiful girlfriends and loved the sex so I was pretty unsure about being with a man. Also the gay lifestyle and flamboyant gays did not appeal to me. So had one fling with this guy and he said he enjoyed both sexes. A revelation. Didn’t know how to meet guys and… Read more »
I began fantasizing about other boys a little order than me about 7-8, certain men always drew my eyes, middle school, I was absolutely sure it was men that I wanted to touch, feel and kiss. I didn’t know the terminology, though. The first kiss I shared was in high school, lit me up like wild-fire inside, down on the Mississippi. Ran into some other boys from our rival high school that were getting high and drinking beer, back in the 70’s. During summer vacation, we continued to meet throughout that summer after our pt jobs, fooling around with each… Read more »
I was 7 yo when I told the cute slightly older neighbor boy that he was “as pretty as a girl”. I will never forget how he twisted his face to express at his anger for what I intended to be a compliment. Despite being rejected by him, I continued to be friends with pretty bois who attracted my attention with their beauty.At the same time, I never had sexual fantasies about any of them even when I was trying to express my sexuality when I was teenager. I resented gay bois in high school who thought I was hiding… Read more »
Summer Of 85 (A coming out story) The summer of 1985 came back to memory when my cousin’s partner walked into my room asking if I had two songs by Tears for Fears. It’s not that I was a big fan of Tears for Fears, or even a fan of their hit album (not CD yet) ‘Songs From The Big Chair’ It is that I remember listening to those two songs a countless number of times during that summer. ‘Everybody Wants To Rule The World’ and ‘Shout’ played on my Walkman over and over during what I consider the most… Read more »
I got married at 22 and was totally straight. We had two boys together and I was in my early 30s before I even began to think that sex with a guy might be fun. Before that, I thought it sounds gross. It all happened because I liked to read erotica — all straight. Especially group situations. I guess the category was off on one story of a young guy sucking his multiple cocks for his birthday. Ding!! I was intrigued. I began to seek out more of these stories – feeling guilty for reading them, but my cock would… Read more »
15 YEARS OLD
I just tried it in my late 20s. Sex is sex.
I was 7 or 8 I had a male baby sitter who was 15 that I absolutely loved being with, not to do sex but just couldn’t get him out of my mind , like a crush but more too. when we went swimming once and was changing into our swim trunks and I saw him naked I asked him if hed be my bf lol so yes I knew then I was into guys
As a young teen boy I jack off with a few buddies and even touch each others dick but never really though about being gay. Just jacking off felt good. as I went to college I remember thinking about seeing guys in their undies and thought that was hot but again never thought more of it. It was not until I was in my mid 30’s and a time when I was alone and again curious about guys. I found myself thinking about guys and looking at their bulges wanting to see more. I got online and found a nice… Read more »
It was 1974 in Korat,Thailand as an airman stationed there. I encounter a Katoy who I thought was a woman. Had my first blowjob with her/him @19. Days later I observed her friend having anal sexual, she ask did I want to try it, which I did. Forty five years later I still enjoy females, transgenders and fems(not the flamboyant types). I private I only am into fems or transgender who look and act female their puzzy is just as good or better than females. BISEXUAL FOR LIFE HERE!!!!!!!!!
I knew I was different at 7 or 8 but it really hit home when I was 14 in Jr High gym locker room shower when I had uncontrollable hard on everyday seeing all the dick. I got coined ” lil dick boner boy” Damn kids were brutal back then
I was in 4th or 5th grade, 10 or 11 years old. It wasn’t difficult to figure out, I was fascinated by, even obsessed with, dicks, and not at all interested in v-jay-jay.
I was in the 5th grade waiting in a hallway line to enter the classroom. I told this cute Native American student he had a cute smile. He said, “what are you a faggot” knowing immediately I said something wrong. Oh well, get over it.
I do not think this question can be genuinely and correctly answered emotionally (as opposed to intellectually) without consideration of the age of the responder. The answers by persons 50, 60, 70, 80 or older would be in the context of the society in which they lived which was SO fundamentally different from the context of the years and decades starting about 1980 and on, as to deprive the answer the totally different circumstances in which such a realization might have occurred. In general persons under 50 have grown up in a society both different as well as continually changing… Read more »
I always assumed I was straight. I never gave it a great deal of thought until my mid-40s, and my wife stopped wanting to have sex. I had occasionally watched gay and bi porn, fantasized a bit, but that was about it. One morning I was particularly horny, to the point where sucking dick sounded hot. So I left work early and stopped off at an ABS with booths. I chose one with a glory hole and got naked. Not too long after, a nice dick came through the hole and I went for it. Sucked on him for a… Read more »
I was about 15 and I had a friend who was closeted gay and I never knew. When I stepped out of the shower he was standing there nude hard as a rock. He walked up and started playing with my cock…..I didn’t refuse. After a 5 minute blowjob he had me bent over the towell cabinet with his cock buried in me. I always wondered what that would be like and boy did I fond out that night. The following night I bent him over the towell rack lol. I always looked at other guys cocks in the gym… Read more »
I’m married. To a woman. Same one I dated in high school and married (as virgins) a little too young. I consider myself sexual. Not labeling anything helps me be real with myself. Some things turn me on sometimes but not others. Some men (and women) are super sexy to me in certain moments, but not others. Occasionally I want to hold my buddy’s hand. Knowing me, most of them (almost all straight) just do it. I’m not a threat and I’m just a real man. A hugger. A toucher. More in touch with my touchy side than many men.… Read more »
At perhaps 5 years old my same age cousin did the show me yours thing. I pulled down my pants and first he played with my penis then sucked it. I loved the feeling so when he dropped his pants I reciprocated and was hooked. 60 years later I’m a long term married closeted homosexual. I’ve certainly had sex with at least 200 men and done pretty much everything but the truly nasty stuff. I never feel more pleasure or alive than when I’m engaged in beautiful mansex.
I grew up in rural Jamaica. I was born prematurely and my mother was extremely protective of me. My dad was this macho man. He had nothing to do with me and preferred my brother. I used to play with a doll I borrowed from a class mate. From an early age learnt how to sew. In elementary school I played mainly with the girls. Sometimes I slept at my grandparents and if I did not have my pajamas I slept in my cousin’s dress and I kept it on the next day. I was fascinated by by guy’s penises… Read more »
I grew up in the 60s when I didn’t even know what gay was. But from a very early age – probably 4 or 5 – I wanted to see and touch other boys and wanted them to touch me. I remember masturbating or what passed for it before puberty and fantasizing about penises. When I reached puberty I had a best friend who would let me play with his dick. I’m not circumcised and he was fascinated by my foreskin. He was sliding my skin off & on one time and I went off like a rocket! That was… Read more »
I always knew I wanted to be with Anutha man and I knew I wanted to be a bottom, yrs went by got married ,,then I found out about A4A, met a guy in anutha city cause I didn’t want anyone in my hometown to know,,so I went and met this guy,,,,we had chatted so we both knew what each other wanted,,,so we had a drink and got to know each other better,, then he got naked and I saw the most beautiful dick,,,he stood in front of me and slowly push me to my knees and lifted his dick… Read more »