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What if—the ex-boyfriend who you’ve loved, lost (broke up with you), and never quite let go of—now wants to reconcile with you? Would you take him back? Why or why not?

This is the dilemma that a gay man brought up online. He shared, “He’s coming back after three fucking years.” Further, he said:

Three years ago, I was in a relationship with a military guy. He holds the rank of captain in a fairly prestigious regiment in my country’s army. He chose his career because, I quote, ‘I can’t be openly gay at my rank’. It took me months to get over our break-up. I was very much in love with him. Before blocking me, he also said, ‘Don’t push it, I’ll come back when I’ve had a break’. Well… He suddenly messaged me last night whilst I was at the pub with work colleagues. He asked me if I was single and if I’d been waiting for him. I asked him if he was serious or if he was taking the piss out of me because, for fuck’s sake, after three years, didn’t he think it was inappropriate to come back after all that time?

I was drunk, I told him to go fuck himself, and asked if he was still in the army. The answer is yes. I told him I couldn’t see myself living in secret (even though his family and close friends outside the army know about him), and with the prospect of him often being away for weeks or months on overseas operations. He says he understands, but that he hasn’t forgotten me all this time, and that he wants us to meet up again.

I’m single, and even though I want to hate him with every fiber of my being, I wonder if I should see him again. The truth is, I haven’t forgotten him either, and one of the reasons my recent relationships haven’t worked out is that I was still thinking about him. But on the other hand, I’d come to terms with the fact that he’d never come back. And there it is.

I know that if I see him again, he’ll soften my heart, and it’ll bring up old feelings, and I don’t want that. But on the other hand, I just want to jump in my car and go and find him.

He tells me he wants something serious and that he knows it’s a special life and that it requires compromises, and that he understands why I don’t want this.

I don’t know what to do.

Are there any of you here who are in a relationship with someone in the military? If so, how do you manage that kind of life?  

And now he’s stuck in that familiar tension: head versus heart. He knows what the relationship would require—secrecy, distance, compromise. He knows what hurt last time. But he also knows one thing he can’t ignore: he never really forgot him.

What about you, guys? What do you do when your former boyfriend shows up like that? Do you protect your peace, or risk it again for something that once meant everything?

Some of the gay men online don’t hold back. Some lean toward confrontation, not avoidance. One guy said, “To be honest, if I were in your position, I’d see him. I just think that if one can’t forget about a person for three years, it’s best to confront those feelings. That’s just my opinion, though.”
There’s logic in that. Avoiding someone doesn’t erase those feelings, and sometimes, the only way forward is through.

On the other hand, others recognize the emotional trap and admit they’d still fall into it anyway:
“If I were giving advice, I would say block and move on, and book an appointment with your therapist. If it were me in that situation, I’d see him. Then block and move on and go book an appointment with my therapist.”This guy showed self-awareness with a dose of realism; even if we know better, it doesn’t mean we will do the right thing, which in this case is to ignore and block the ex-boyfriend.

Then there are the guys who see nothing but warning signs: “I can see this red flag from outer space. Move on.” No hesitation. No nostalgia. Just a clear line drawn between what was and what should never be again.

But not everyone agrees that closure comes from walking away. For some, unfinished stories demand an ending like for this gay man who replied, “If you don’t give it a chance, you will never be able to live with yourself. For good or bad, I have a feeling for good, you have to take this through to the end.

You have to follow your heart.”

For this guy, he believes that you’ll always wonder ‘what if?’ and this can be powerful enough to pull you right back in.

Meanwhile, others take a more grounded view, focusing less on the romance and more on reality:
“As someone who has recently broken off with someone I loved, I think what I have understood is you can poll everyone for answers to my questions, but in the end, no one can answer the question if you will love someone who is always going to be imperfect. Best of luck, OP!”
Love isn’t just about feelings; it’s about whether you can live with the situation that comes with the person.

In addition, there’s also the issue of self-worth. Several responses shift the focus away from the ex-boyfriend entirely and back onto the person being asked to decide: “Know your worth! You do not need to sacrifice your well-being to be with a guy who didn’t choose you first or set healthy boundaries in the first place.” He added, “You do not deserve the stress and anxiety of having him flip-flop between you and his work. You can have your fun, but know that in the end, you have to do what is best for yourself, even if it takes a while to realize you need to find someone who would work on making work and relationships work.”

That’s the hard truth: being wanted now doesn’t erase not being chosen before.

Lastly, another gay man said, “If you love yourself even a bit, you will block and have no contact with this guy.” It’s not about him. It’s about you, and what you’re willing to accept.

And maybe that’s what this really comes down to.

Not whether he’s changed. Not whether the feelings are still there. But whether the situation itself has changed enough to make it work this time.

Because the core issues are still there: secrecy, distance, compromise. The same reasons it ended in the first place.

So, the question isn’t just “Do you still love him?”

It’s “Can you live the life that comes with loving him?”

Having said all that, what about you, Adam4Adam blog reader? What would you do if an ex came back after years, especially one you never fully got over? Would you meet him, just to see what’s still there? Or would you shut it down, knowing how it ended the first time? Are you willing to take an ex back, and if so, what has to be different for it to work? Would you risk reopening old feelings, or protect yourself and walk away? Share with us your thoughts and stories in the comments section below.

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